I am 45 years old with no know biological family. I was given up for adoption at birth. Was adopted by a couple that I do not know who they are; but, they were unable to keep me. The adoption was disrupted and I was returned to public child welfare. I was placed in a couple of foster homes and adopted again at age 6. This family provided all the love and structure possible. However, it did not change the fact that I was abandoned by my biological family. I loved my adoptive parents very much. 'Til this day their efforts still sustain me. They were the best thing that "physically" ever happened to me. They loved me more than anyone else. Especially, my mother Niagara. The problem is that they are no longer in life. Once again, I am orphaned. I aborted the one child I was blessed with at age 18. Had two very unsucessful marriages; none of which, lasted longer than 5 years. I selected poor choices of men because of low self esteem related to abandonment issues as well as infertility issues. I feel so empty and lonely. If it wasn't for Christ, I would have lost my mind, body, and spirit.I live because of my faith in Jesus. I thank God for his presence and pray he keeps me for etern